Bringing her in, however, had its own triggers. I remembered the day Nathan fainted after chemo and I had to bring him in there for a stat echo. I remembered bringing in Julia for an echo that finally helped prove she did have Kawasaki Disease. I remembered a conversation I had with a just-turned-two year old Lauren the last time we were there in the parking lot. She saw the hospital and immediately associated it with Nathan.
Also, I had to fill this out:
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Good news about Lauren but that form sucks. But in a way I'm not sorry for you that it still hurts, of course I'm sorry you lost Nathan but at least you're not losing his memory. I find myself not remembering and not being triggered anymore by the things associated with what I've lost. I don't even remember how I used to feel. I have the knowledge that something ended and it hurt me, but I've lost what it was. As much as your trauma sucks, I don't wish you to "get over it" or "get better." Personally I liked grief way better than "acceptance."
yay about Lauren's heart.
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But I agree with Mongoose.
Yay about Lauren's Heart! I'm so sorry about the form and the memories. I don't check in as ofter as I used to but I still remember y'all in prayer often.
I wish for you triggers that bring happy holiday memories during the rest of this season, even though I know the happy memories bring pain. Nathan brought so much joy to so many--I hope that many can remember him with that joy this season and always. His Grandma Kathy is missing him.
I'm glad her heart is good. I remember when you mentioned that before.
I hate those forms.
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