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I just ran across these pictures taken the day of Nathan's funeral. For some reason I noticed Luke in the background (not that you can tell it is him, I just know it is). No pictures of me that day. I ran around with my sister in law all day the day before or so trying to find a dress for the funeral. I think my mom found one for Julia. Lauren had hers. I haven't been able to wear mine again though I swore I would. Perhaps this summer.

edited to add this picture - courtesy of Lisa of Lauren sleeping on my dad at the reception

A visit

I had the most lovely dream about Nathan last night. We were face to face and he was just smiling his sweet smile at me. I even caressed his cheek and chatted with him. I could see his whole face with all its detail. Just so precious.

March 2010 Pictures

He said it

I have another post about Good Friday/Easter I am working on but will post this brief one first.

In a part of the Easter sermon, our Sr. Pastor talked about the foolish things Christians say to other Christians who are grieving.  How they make comments about "Heaven has another angel" and other such platitudes about how we should be happy that our loved one is in heaven.  He went on to say that death is a horrible awful thing and that it was never part of God's plan for the world.  Jesus wept with his loved one who were grieving and that is what we should do too.

Can I get an Amen?!

Easter Girls

I took some Easter Pictures today since I will leave the house before dawn and return after lunch due to singing four services tomorrow and will not get to see my girls all dressed up!  I have also included some older pics.

Easter 2010

 Easter 2009

Easter 2008

Easter 2007

Easter 2006

Easter 2005

Easter 2000 - with Nathan in my tummy!

April 1, 2003

Seven years since diagnosis day. What if he had never relapsed? I wouldn't mind today so much. He would have been a 7 year survivor. If only it had been a joke.

I wrote about it on April 1, 2007. Nathan was still with us though we knew he was dying. It made me feel good to go back and read the intro of that post though because he was still alive and that was all that mattered. I try to remember that attitude we had, the taking one day at a time even though we knew the days were numbered. I am so thankful we were able to do that.

HERE is that post.